Not too long ago in the grand scheme of things, I lived with the most beautiful woman, so loving and caring that I loved her above all else. I loved her but never cared for her. I was just too naive and ignorant to know how to love her the way she loved me. I was too young.

She tried to teach me but circumstances would make it difficult and I would falter, yet she continued. For years we were together and for years she didn’t give up on me. After I had enough lessons she let me leave, so I left.

We split up and as time moved on I would try to love others the way she loved me but I couldn’t because my heart was not as unconditional and patient as hers. My heart was not as understanding.

As I grew older and further from her I would dwell on what she meant to me. Experience is what I lacked and what I would gain. Years would pass before I would suddenly understand all that she tried to teach me. Love myself and be patient with myself first. Love and patience come from me. Finally, I am the love and patience that I seek.

I don’t wish I could go back and change things. I don’t wish I could go back and tell her how I feel. I don’t wish that we were still together. I just hope.

I hope that in my older age that I’ve been a good son to her. I hope I’ve made her proud. My mom is the best woman I’ve ever known. The unconditional love, patience, and understanding that she has given has made me what I am today.

Thank you, mom. I love you.

One thought on “An Open Letter From The Heart

  • February 21, 2018 at 8:29 pm

    I love you, mijo..this made me cry…I think I will come back and read it again when I need to feel you close – I am sooo proud of you – you will never know how proud until your own children give you children and you open that place in your heart that can only love and give love…xoxoxo

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